“From the Depths of My Heart”, Kiln Fired Glass, Sterling and Fine Silver, © Jessica Wesolek,2013
This time, I went missing for three whole weeks!! OMG, where have I been?
Have I been navel-gazing and contemplating the meaning of it all? No.
Have I been whining and crying about too much to do in too little time? No.
Did I take my planned trip to Tubac and bask in warm weather and warm-hearted sisterhood? No.
Then what in the world have I been doing?
I have been making art, my friends.
Making art and that is all.
“Rainbow Raven Coasters” Kiln glass silkscrened with powdered glass. © Jessica Wesolek 2013
It has been many years since I have felt like this. That I am absolutely firing on all cylinders.
When I made a promise to myself in my twenties that I would live by my art, or die trying, I knew that there would be much compromise made between what I longed to create and what I would HAVE to create in order to keep a roof over my head, and some food under that roof.
Because I was always being “creative” in some way, however, I have never been unhappy in my commercial endeavors and have, in fact, enjoyed them.
But there is nothing in this world as amazing and all-encompassing as the JOY of immersing myself in art for me – making whatever I want to make and learning, learning, learning in the process.
I have been logging 12 hours studio days one after another. Luckily, the studio is well warmed by the new kiln, which is running all the time. I don’t know or care what time it is, or whether I remembered to eat something all day.
I am making art.
“You and I” Sterling Silver, Fine Silver, and kiln-fired glass. © Jessica Wesolek, 2013
I think I mentioned last time (so long ago, it seems) that I was about to take a workshop in Powder Printing at the Bullseye Glass Resource Center here in Santa Fe. I was excited, but I had no idea that I would fall head over heels into a new world, and LOVE it SO much.
Being reminded of how it feels to be completely absorbed in art making, has reminded me also that artists are the luckiest people alive.
And yet they spend more time soul-searching, self-doubting, and indulging in self-sabotage than they do making art.
If they would just put all that energy into making art, there would be none left for worrying about making art.
I speak to me as I speak to thee, because I am as guilty as anyone of barking up that very wrong tree.
Today is Thanksgiving, and I am grateful for so many things: my family, my health, and my dear friends (such as you).
But this year, I am reminded to give thanks for the greatest gift of all . . .
That I can make art.
“Wild Horse Canyon” Image powder-printed with reactive glasses and kiln-fired. © Jesica Wesolek 2013
“Family Ties” Sterling Silver and Reactive Glasses Kiln-Fired. © Jessica Wesolek 2013
Nightlight, Kiln-Carved Cathedral Glass. © Jessica Wesolek 2013
Happy Thanksgiving, my dear friends!